Walking Away
It's always best not to compare the two to each other because then his additions get compromised by his shenanigans and maybe I start to feel you a little bit more
But comparison was the only way to wrap my mind around the thought of ever loving him the way I loved you
That's the problem though, he isn't you and quite frankly I'm not me, or who I once used to be back then when you and I made we
He wasn't anything I wanted until he was everything I needed
As independent as I am, as God-fearing as I am, I boldly say ...needed him
To show me everything I wanted until it was everything I hated
I figured the relationship was supposed to be effortless if love was involved
when really the love is supposed to be effortless when relations are involved
Love gives us an idiotic pass to do things mindlessly almost unconsciously that if subconscious we would snap the hell out of
Stupidity can make us delusional to the reality of any situation
A smile never guaranteed happiness, A laugh never guaranteed joy, A tear never guaranteed remorse
Doesn't he know that? Naive, I suppose
I was tired of silently coping by offering less words afraid that I'd run him away with my tongue
Those unspoken thoughts became unheard cries that turned into a heart of demise, a wall full of cries
Nothing about me is perfect, even though he would beg to differ but beg to agree which annoyed the hell out of me
I had my share of mistakes, even though he would beg to agree I would beg to concur, so he would just shut the hell up
For the better you would say, for the worse I felt so for the better I prayed
Taking a step away from hurt should be easy but it's the hardest thing I've done
I think about you more now than I did before, I cry less now than I did before
I smile less now then I did before, I pray more now than I did before
Every time you whisper those words ... I remember how cold it felt with him
Chills run along the curvature of my back and tears begin to form in my eyes
It's something fresh and renewing about a young love that won't ever die that drowns you deep in "it"
I started to suffocate with him, gasping for more .. I found "it" after walking away
Written By: DLSC 2015
